“You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks, or even months over-analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could’ve, would’ve happened… or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move the fuck on.”
“Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside while still alive. Never surrender.”
“I’m not saying I’m gonna change the world, but I guarantee that I will spark the brain that will change the world.”
“You’re right.I am crazy. But you know what else? I don’t give a fuck.”
“I want to grow. I want to be better. You grow. We all grow. We’re made to grow. You either evolve or you disappear.”
“Reality is wrong. Dreams are for real.”
“A coward dies a thousand times, a soldier dies but once.”
“Never surrender, it’s all about the faith you got: don’t ever stop, just push it ’till you hit the top and if you drop, at least you know you gave your all to be true to you, that way you can never fall”
“During your life, never stop dreaming. No one can take away your dreams”
“Everybody’s at war with different things…I’m at war with my own heart sometimes.”
“If you could walk a mile in my shoes you’d be crazy too.”
“If you let a person talk long enough, you’ll hear their true intentions.”
“The only time I have problems is when I sleep.”
“We can never go nowhere unless we share with each other.”
“Pay no mind to those who talk behind your back, it simply means that you are 2 steps ahead.”
“Sometimes when I’m alone
Cause I am on my own.
The tears I cry are bitter and warm.
They flow with life but take no form
I Cry because my heart is torn.
I find it difficult to carry on.
If I had an ear to confide in,
I would cry among my treasured friend,
but who do you know that stops that long,
to help another carry on.
The world moves fast and it would rather pass by.
Then to stop and see what makes one cry,
so painful and sad.
and no one cares about why.”
“The realest people don’t have a lot of friends.”
“You can never “just be friends” with someone you fall in love with.”
“Don’t leave this world without giving it your all.”
“If God wanted me to be quiet he would’ve never showed me what he does.”
(i started this post because i wanted to share a quote i thought i heard him say about how we don’t choose our roles but we gotta play our part but couldn’t find it, i guess a lot of people have said something similar…
deeply though, i realize we did choose our roles, as we are a small part of the same god that decides all… we’re just not capable, mature enough or evolved enough to really embrace and acknowledge that truth yet.. it’s immense to accept you are truly him, that everything is him, every thought, every thing, all the same one him…
i was half in sleep last night realizing this truth, every single thought was coupled with the awareness of “still always him, still always the same power source of it all” and it was the realization of absolutely everything being this same one power source and the room i was in and all the people there and realizing that if the realization that it is all the same one him all the time no matter what were to be lived the next level cannot be avoided. it is undeniably true, no ones sacrificed yet. i think i have to but i haven’t accepted it yet. haven’t pulled my balls up and accepted this is the only reason i came, the only reason i am alive, the only reason for everything that i am and have ever been and have ever gone through and learnt. absolutely everything in my life is so that i can be the sacrifice, make this sacrifice to get us to realize its all always him, us… literally nothing but him, always and forever. if we stay true, we get world peace and oneness, sexual freedom, absolute freedom, then ability to manifest matter with our minds, move matter with our minds, and you continuously unlock more and more realms and power and truth to the fundamental thing of reality, to it always being god, simply by continuing to lean into that truth, “but it’s always god” until i suppose we are one with him completely in ways no species has every become one with him in that i believe the entire universe ascends and is completed at that point. a unification of whatever it is that is behind this, whatever the driving force is, will have made a resolution on this impossible large, old, and complex trip of billions of years and gazillion light years and unfathomable number of species and stories of all these different planets and time lines. how many stories has god witnessed through the internal perspective of every being, just on this planet alone. every human story ever, every fucking ant and cockroach. every tiger, every gorilla, every fish. and that’s just this god damn planet. the being behind all that is has been on this trip for so fkn long, and it has never gotten it right yet. and it can do nothing but continue it’s beautiful, tragic, dramatic, comedic, obscenely immense and enormous journey, until it accomplishes whatever it is looking to accomplish. even reaching this level of understanding it is a true and real one god behind it all, you are still baffled by the “why is it even doing this thing. why all this evolution. why all this time, all this struggle. what the fuck is this thing, where does it come from. what is it in. what it is trying to overcome. who made it. like the fundamental fact that we are god floating on nothing, or potentially nothing… i suppose all we need to know from this point on is that we are god and that we must live it love it and so on, that’s all we need to know from here and enjoy the ride and the show, and i guess he cannot hide and the answers we seek must come out if we are courageous enough to ask them and confront them in truth, vulnerability and authenticity) thank you god for existing and existence, but also fuck you for allowing hypocrisy and allowing our minds to be so easily deceived and obedient to ways and authority we should inherently know are maligned. fuck you for fucking with yourself. i suppose he can do nothing but let the higher power do as it wills until one reaches a level of realizing there is greater benefit individually and collective to unite as one as opposed to rule, hustle, conquer, control, manipulate for greater individual gain. it is all always the same one god doing it to himself so i guess he enjoys the game throughout every stage and through every position. there are such heavy things to confront from this realization. like rape. imagine a man, a straight man who was no interest in gay sex, gets forcibly raped somewhere some how, and gets fucked in his ass, and has to grapple with the idea of “god did this to me?” “is that what he wanted for me?” “is this what was truly meant to be?” “did i actually want to get raped from some point of view and some light?” imagine being a man, and wanting to murder your rapist and struggling with this light of it is all god, everything happens for a reason. how fucked up is it. how badly do we need to be honest and let god out. how badly does god owe us an explanation. how badly do we need to stop being in denial of our truth and truly come out. how weak are we that we would rather fight our truth, repress our truth, run from our truth, deny it, then confront it. i personally hate that it is has to be an individual life that makes the leap initially. that this life must unravel, destroying privacy, taking every relationship he’s ever had and really going to the 110% truth he sees of it from the light of god, to then make everyone, whether they want to or not in a sense, come to face their own truths and get their own truths out… i find it nuts how it takes one being to man it, i walk around and think “how the fuck could you make it this way?” and i think “how else can it be?” i see we are all individual beings part of a whole, and it has always been this way. i figure from the one higher being, it is always a better strategy to have billions, trillions of points of views and perspective of this one thing, this one existence, this one universe you are growing within and evolving within… so it makes sense that life choose, as an evolution strategy of the one collective being behind it all, to have many individual pods, free to go their own way and learnt their own things, and all being relayed back to the same one source, as opposed to just having one being, alone with itself and being limited by one individual perspective and learning rate. obviously having trillions and more of perspectives, soldiers, learning processes is better than one… but the idea of “the one who must sacrifice to make the initial peace” is very wild in the physical weight it carries. i am sure many people who have responsibilities of many people on their actions realize and feel this weight when they are making decisions, and the best of them don’t complain or bitch, they take it in stride accepting it is what it is. this role of being the one the entire transition hangs on, i believe can result in a black hole once the “realization that it all hangs on me” is fully, authentically realized. in that the outside realty because irreversibly attached to this realized being that realizes it is up to them. that’s why i believe we have billions of black holes in our universe and a still unfinished unascended universe. i get closure in realizing how difficult this has been for me just to step up to the door i have not yet passed through in realizing “no one’s ever done this on this planet, and every being that has passed through has failed, so don’t be so hard on yourself. it’s literally the most difficult thing ever that has literally never been successfully achieved. the fact that you haven’t killed yourself, that you’re not on a drug addiction denial fest, that you are healthy and capable and handling it to this point is already something…” i have deep knowledge of who i am and my role and my deepest self goes “bro its me man, i am automatic, i got this, fuck the shit pussy beings that couldn’t handle it i got this” but that guy, like.., it’s easy to be cocky internally like that where it doesn’t matter. when that guy even THINKS to come out here, when that 100% certain guy makes his way to the surface here, just barely enters the game, supernatural effects happen right away and i go “oh yeah, everyone has to know, i can never hide from this again, it’s everyone and everyone has a role to play here…” etc etc, and the peace and freedom, the relative peace and freedom, of being with this conundrum alone in my mind, in analysis and contemplation can no longer exist if i go the way and never look back. this internal peace and freedom, is pointless and for nothing. it’s comfortable but it’s pointless. it’s all for god. all the whiny ” i don’t want so much influence, i don’t want it to be all about me, i don’t want such responsibility and power” all that gets shrugged off with a “but you do right? didn’t you choose this? aren’t i you?” and it gets wacky bro. accepting it is all god for everyone is the switch, but our current ways of denial and division cannot handle it by definition, so it is what it is. i feel reality literally waving and changing when i get close to the leap in thought, authentically close. i feel the fabric of reality around me like rearranging and like truly getting ready for a new phase. there is just so much crazy and anxiety and fear to pass through. i feel the resonance of all this internal crazy, fear, anxiety and denial that we all have repressed through continuously hacking at the wheel of life in this system, continuously needing to lie and hustle each other endlessly, for so long, once that comes out, that repressed craziness, that repressed hypocrisy, will literally cause earthquakes. it is all truly spiritual before it is physical, and it is all supremely physical ultimately. there have been a few earthquakes lately and this corona virus seems to be a god sent “everyone stay at home, everything shut down, everyone get grounded” as an opportunity to reset and begin a new reality, a once in a lifetime opportunity that the entire globe is at home and off work and going through this pause together. this opportunity will be here for a month or two. if we miss it, we’ll still be able to evolve into peace and oneness as that’ll never not be the next thing we are here to do, but god damn this corona virus thing will really make it click faster and better and probably more seamlessly and probably with as little crazy as possible given that we are all already off, or as off as possible, from the brainwashed, mindless repetition of spinning wheels and going no where. love you. stuff like this rant, written from 7 and into 7, only leads to more 7. when i take steps into 8, 8 is so heavy and naturally reality changing that it takes care of itself. 8 is literally a new reality. as long as i am alive i am here to do this thing. love you)